if anybody still actually care

yeah.

february is ending

complacency is one of the evilest form of evil. it makes you feel good, even when you are not. it deters self-improvement, and it develops contentment of current circumstances.

ladies and gentlemen, my AS trials is coming within a month and i should be freaking out right now. but i am not, that’s the biggest problem. the fact that i did not actually do very well in the previous semester test aggravates this situation. i have no idea right now, what i am doing in college. seriously.

i do not think i have enough time, i don’t know. in the back of my mind, there’s always this voice reminding me that, i do have a life to attend apart from studying. but the thing is, my life at the moment by right, IS studying. and i forget sometime, that i am only in the very beginning of my journey. now it seems like so much is going on when in fact, nothing is actually going on.

to tell you the truth, i am worried. but it worries me even more that i am not doing something about my worries. i feel sort of sick, really.

it’s what we do

good friends that keep each other awake on exam periods, albeit him studying and me whining. hehe. glad that i know you, arv!

this was during earlier college days, how i wish we’re still THAT rajin. shugan, edrea, aiman, kee en, mun, arv & su.

bonus, gabriel being funny. (:

i’m cool, we’re cool, right?

so yeh i pretty much screwed up my math test just now. did i feel bad? fucking terrible. uhuh that’s more like it. but yeh, i know. i kinda deserved it. maths is undeniably hard (at least for me), but i feel stupid for not trying hard enough. eurgh. and for the last couple of days i have been extra cranky to my friends/housemates due to this stress i’m having – sorry. pressure is definitely on. be it peer, parents (not much), or sponsor. whatever lah. what’s done is done.

physic’s up next; not that i’m optimistic, huh.

remember what you told me

that i won’t make it?

guess what, i’m on my way.

truth is like caffeine; it wakes you up

sometimes what you see on the surface is not always what you gonna get. deception is human nature ergo i shall not make a big deal out of it, i suppose. but most of the time, it is the truth that makes everything else a big fucking lie. yet they say everyone deserves a second chance, no? ahh let’s just be civil and have a cuppa while we ponder.

 

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oh and you know what, i cried in class today.

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and no one actually noticed.