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truth is like caffeine; it wakes you up

15 Nov

sometimes what you see on the surface is not always what you gonna get. deception is human nature ergo i shall not make a big deal out of it, i suppose. but most of the time, it is the truth that makes everything else a big fucking lie. yet they say everyone deserves a second chance, no? ahh let’s just be civil and have a cuppa while we ponder.



oh and you know what, i cried in class today.






and no one actually noticed.

it will never end

21 Oct

i am slowly returning to my old self.

alternative electronica, running, late lunches.

and i’m not convinced that’s it’s good.

21 weird things that’s me

3 Jun

ok most of the time i consider myself abnormal/a freak compared to others. i have always tried to be/act normal around people especially in public, but the thing is, i’m not quite.

here’s some of them. i wonder if ever other people out there does/have any of these.

  1. i have super sweaty palm – it’s hyperhydrosis.
  2. i have never EVER been keen in sports, except for running (though i suck at it) – long dist lah 100 meter will sure fail one.
  3. i almost exclusively listen to mainstream music and i still can’t never quite understand why people think it’s uncool to like mainstream. most of my friends likes indie, unknown singers etc. but my genre is totally top 40.
  4. i have NEVER slept at a friends house, not even once. and there’s only two or three times my friends slept at my place. and the occasion was somewhat recent.
  5. speaking of friends, my friends mostly consists of 1.5% of best friends, 30% chat buddies (like classmates etc), and the rest (that’s 68.5%) are merely acquaintances. sad, innit?
  6. and i don’t have friends in the circumference of 10km (probably more) from my house. perhaps i have one.
  7. i never use hairstyling products, except when my hair needs to look a bit prim. don’t get me wrong,  i clean my hair etc. but i tend to avoid gel/wax/whatever. yes i buy them, but i don’t really use them. that’s why my hair kinda sucks.
  8. i have an ex who is one of my good friends right now.
  9. i read a lot of newspaper. seriously my minimum is two/day. and i scrutiny every  single page. those who were my classmates should know this. (they read free newspaper almost daily, thanks to me.)
  10. i don’t wear watches. i tried wearing it but it’s really not something that i’m comfortable with. i only wear them at times where i have to look formal. and usually i rely on my phone for time. or people around me.
  11. i do not know how to post anything other than letters at the post office. how do you post a parcel?
  12. i tend to dig up archives in blogs that i really like. almost stalking. so beware.
  13. i can’t whistle or snap fingers properly. omg seriously.
  14. i hate taking off my glasses. i just look plain weird w/o it. and i especially hate doing this when there’s people around.
  15. i dressed up as a truant school boy (with a fellow friend) during an occasion (where people dress up) in school. simply because i don’t have a nice shirt at the moment, lol.
  16. i have teachers whom i can text almost like they’re my classmates.
  17. sometimes i do care to dress up, but most of the time, i don’t. i am so used to wear a worn out tees and a pair of sweatpants. sometimes i even travel in it.
  18. i never finished a harry potter book, or film. i never watched/read anything twilight.
  19. i used to like spice girls, vengaboys, dr. bombay, aqua and such when i was about five years old. it was because of my late nanny’s then teenage daughter, who used to buy the cassettes. anyone still remember ‘barbie girl?’
  20. my mobile’s ringtone is the boring office phone “breeeeep”.
  21. the fact that i just did and POSTED this list.

am i weird or not? weird righhttt???

*updated with poll!

update 25th may 2010

25 May

#1 – i am back from my trip. will blog ’bout this later.

#2 – in the last post i told you guys about the youthsays realvoices project right? well i could not commit to the project, and i sent this the youthsays guy. he was a-okay with it. so in favour, i’d promote the blog anyways. (i’m so nice right?) click here!

#3 – sime darby mailed me the invitation to their 3rd stage assessment. in fact i actually just came back from grand dorsett where it was held. super tired. will blog this later, too. wish me lots of luck kayh. end of post. (:

here goes,

26 Mar

Nia Ridzwan (okay i just discovered that this is only her nom de plume, like two minutes ago) tagged me. This is the second tag post I ever did on this blog. (:

Rules: It’s harder than it looks! Copy to your own blog, erase my answers, enter yours, and tag five people including the person who tagged you. Use the first letter of your name to answer each of the following questions. They have to be real, nothing made up! IF the person before you had the same first initial, you must use different answers. You cannot use any words twice and you can’t use your name for the boy/girl name question.

What is your name : amiruddin

A four Letter Word : aura~

A boy’s Name : al afiq

A girl’s Name : amalia

azlin & amalia. double 'A', extra points!

An occupation : astronaut!

A color : amber

amber the colour's pic is not so nice, so i put amber the gem. same colour, still. (:

Something you’ll wear : abercrombie & fitch ❤

A type of food : apple pie!

pretty pie (:

Something found in the bathroom : apricot scrub

A place : adelaide / africa

A reason for being late : admiring myself in the mirror 😯

Something you’d shout : aaaaaarrrgh!

A movie title : alice in wonderland

Something you drink : a&w root beer ftw!

A musical group : abba (lameness…)


An animal : aardvark

A type of car : audi a4 (double ‘A’ ok! get extra point)

want one?

A type of fruit : apricot


Qhailani and Firdaus, *pokemon-choosing-like intonation* I choose you! :mrgreen:

anyone who wants also can lah!

thou shalt have stiff upper lip

20 Mar

today, went to the british council education uk fair at klcc, with fify and efy. yeah lots of ang moh. the american education appeals more to me somehow. preferring the twang over the stiff upper lip. lol.

ok it's scotland but it looks pretty, using the pic anyways.

then off to klcc, bought to kill a mockingbird at kino, (love you kino!)

and met ilman who treated us coffee bean. went for the usual, caramel macchiato (though i’m more of a starbucks person, thanks ilman!) .

and tomorrow, gallavanting around Kuala Lumpur with friends! yeay yeay!

amor platonicus

10 Feb

ignore the boring excerpt unless you like greek civilisation history. i do. 🙂

Platonic love, in its modern popular sense, is a non-sexual affectionate relationship. A simple example of Platonic relationships is a deep, non-sexual friendship, not subject to gender pairings and including close relatives.

hi, i'm plato, the supposedly smart greek guy. jyeah, i introduced this platonic love thingy. platonic - plato? makes sense? thee hee hee.

The term amor platonicus was coined as early as the 15th century by the Florentine scholar Marsilio Ficino as a synonym for amor socraticus. Platonic love in this original sense of the term is examined in Plato’s dialogue the Symposium, which has as its topic the subject of love or Eros generally. Of particular importance there are the ideas attributed to the prophetess Diotima, which present love as a means of ascent to contemplation of the Divine. For Diotima, and for Plato generally, the most correct use of love of other human beings is to direct ones mind to love of Divinity.

In short, with genuine Platonic love, the beautiful or lovely other person inspires the mind and the soul and directs ones attention to spiritual things. One proceeds from recognition on another’s beauty, to appreciation of Beauty as it exists apart from any individual, to consideration of Divinity, the source of Beauty, to love of Divinity. The spiritual ideas of Platonic love — as well as the fundamental spiritual emphasis of all of Plato’s writings — have been de-emphasized over the last two centuries.”

– from Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia

as far as i remember, i came across a lot of these platonic love elements in some books that i read or movies i watched. maybe it’s the st. valentines’ day atmosphere, but only today, i came to realize that i’m actually in a platonic relationship. it’s between me and a girl friend.

we knew each since fourteen, and we’re best friends ever since. we shared stories almost daily, and i think i probably know her more than her bf. i think.

let’s hear some stories. some time ago, i came to the fact that she actually saved my name as ‘Atifa’ in her phone. i thought it’s funny and to make it even, (yeah, i too, don’t know why it had to be ‘even’) i changed her name to ‘Mizan’ in my phone. and today i feel  like sharing a funny text conversation we just had today.

me    : hi, atifa here.

her   : mizan here! haha, retard.

me    : it’s funny to think  that mizan and atifa are bff’s in lalaland.

me    : and atifa is a blonde

her   : gedik. atifa is an african.

me    : BLONDE african ok. and mizan is a skinny  indonesian mat rempit with puffy hair.

her   : ya. i think mizan sounds like that type of guy. my god! change his name!

me    : no. it’s gonna be mizan forever. mizan mizan mizan.

i think it’s funny. and yeah she’s my bff in real life, too.


postscript – to a reader out there, someone told me about you! call that person in tronoh and tell that i posted this. hehehe. cheers.