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childhood

6 Oct


oh hai everyone. wow. i should be doing my physics revision now as the test is tomorrow, but i’m not. haih. my thoughts are incomprehensible at the mo. let’s try blogging it out. i feel incomplete for some reasons. i don’t know what i want.

or i think i know, but i could never get what i want. i want us to be closer, i want to talk, i want your interest and attention. what shit is this paragraph?

issue #2 – i lost my directions. i don’t know where i’m heading from here. i came to the realization that i am not (that) gifted in terms of academic achievements compared to people around me, thus leading me to conclude that i am unworthy of my own dreams. saddening much eh my life?

i go to college, learn (i think i learn), hooha here there, and back home. that’s practically what i do. come on, what kinda life is that? what is my purpose, i am still finding out. but i’m afraid my flashlight is running out of battery by the minute i’m typing this. i need someone to talk to, really. but i can’t find the right person to do so.

and what’s the most pathetic part, the person whom i use to tell all my problems is slowly becoming the problem. wait, i think she’s not my problem. i should not care actually, as per the fact that she does not care much about me either. make sense right? aaaaah life.

oh well, you know what they say about growing up, you tend to forget things along the way. and for me, perhaps i forgot how simple things can make me laugh out loud or smile all day. how i wish i could go back to the days when i was six and my biggest of problems was whether or not i had  enough lego to build a fort/robot.

little amiruddin, i miss you.

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